So I just (unofficially) finished my Second Year Second Trimester of my Degree!
Prior to and during the final examination season, I've been thinking a lot about what I want out of my life- what I want to do, what makes me happy, what are my fundamental principles, my core life goals etc. I've also been thinking about what I'm doing with my life now- am I happy like this?
And I realized that although I'm not sad or angry, I'm not exactly "Happy" either. I find myself constantly thinking to myself that I can do better, I can be better, I can live better. I keep having ideas of what I would like to do with my time popping into my head.
I like self-care. I like learning to take full care of myself- mind, health, body, appearance etc etc. I like striving for perfection (my idea of perfection, at least). I like gaining new experiences. I like to do things of which I can see the result (eg Event planning; Business). And I just love improving myself in all aspects and sharing them with people.
And I've found out that what's stopping me from doing things towards all that is my fear of being judged by others as a try-hard, a fake, vain etc etc.
So idk if this relates to the above, but after much thinking, I have decided to come back to this blog and blog regularly. I don't know which category mentioned above this fits in, but my mind and heart have been telling me to blog more, and to blog without the fear or worry about being judged. There are so many things I would like to blog about but never did because I feel inadequate and unqualified to do so, and I also fear people's judgments. But now, Screw It.
I'm back and I intend to blog more regularly. At least one post every two weeks.
My writing is very detached and incoherent but I will try my best to improve hahaha.
Till then,
Audrey
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