Before 21

I've always been a person of big dreams and plenty of goals. When I was younger, I dream really big- going to Oxbridge or Ivy League on scholarship; traveling the world anytime I want; working for big, important companies; owning a resort etc etc.

Then as I grew up, I slowly realized some things are harder to achieve given my circumstances
(Chinese in Malaysia with higher competition among non-bumiputras for scholarships, from a rural area far from the major cities, middle-income family, no connections to people who are able to pull strings). I suppose the main obstacle is finance, as my parents have just enough to fend for me and my 3 siblings. So gradually, I realized that I have to adjust my dreams and goals to fit my reality. I don't cancel most of them- I just adjust or extend the timeline.

But here I am now, almost 21, with not much going on in life, so I thought (back in January 2018) that perhaps this year, I will really take action and do the things I want to do. Whatever obstacles there is or would be, I will just take the best route to overcome it. So, this time, I wrote down some goals to be achieved before I turn 21 on 30 June 2018.

I write plenty of goals everytime, but this one I intend to take action to fulfill.

Here's the list:

• Travel Thailand solo.
• Save up RM200 every month.
• Have allergy under control.
• Have minimal acne and bacne.
• Be fit.
• CGPA of 3.70 and above.

So far, I've been doing a pretty good progress. I've already booked my return flights to Bangkok; my allergy is pretty okay; my acne and bacne are reducing and my skin appearing better and better (thanks to certain products which I will talk more about in another blog post); I've been working out regularly, not as often as I used to during High School, but still a good progress; and I have, at the moment, a 3.70 CGPA, which I hope will increase from this sem.

It's going pretty well so I hope it will continue to grow and develop better and better.

2017 Christmas Wish List

Hello hello!

Christmas is coming, and Christmas Parties too! I've been trying to live a more sustainable lifestyle- which means I try not to possess unnecessary items- hence, I do wish that the gifts I receive this year will be things that I actually Need (or Really Want hahaha). SOOOOO to make my secret santa's life easier, here's a list of things I would love to get! 😊

p/s: I don't mind getting pre-loved items too! I've always preferred to not buy new products if there are preloved alternatives. I just don't believe in buying brand new things for myself coz it adds on to our carbon footprint and landfills. So if you wanna get me something used, I really do not mind (I mean, given that it's still in good condition la hahaha).
Or if you want to make me something, I WILL LOVE IT EVEN MORE 💗💗💗

ok so here goes:

Below RM20

1. Korean Monthly&Weekly Planner

RM12.80 HERE
RM18.40 HERE- Beige, please
RM19.36 HERE- Pink Flower, please
RM22.85 HERE- Light Blue, please


2. Pilot G-2 Pen Refills
0.38, 0.5, 0.7- Black/ Blue

3. Highlighters & Midliners
Muji ones would be nice :) But I'm not picky so normal Faber Castell or Stabilo or Pilot etc etc ones will do :)

4. Facial Masks
These capsule ones from Sephora are RM10 each

or you can just get any sheet masks (<RM10) from Watsons, Guardian, Sasa, or Hermo~~~

Above RM20

1. Harry Potter Books (except for The Sorcerer's Stone aka Book 1)

2. Agatha Christie's (except for Murder on the Orient Express & Miss Marple Series Book 1-3)

3. Sophie Kinsella's (except for The Wedding Night & I've got your number)

4. Jodi Picoult's (except for Change of Heart and Picture Perfect)

5. Any books, basically.

6. Columbia Foldable Waterproof Backpack

7. Nature-based body scrub
I absolutely LOVE body scrubs! They make my skin feel great and the whole process of exfoliating is just so therapeutic!

Do look for salt or sugar or coffee based ones. Please refrain from getting those containing microbeads. It breaks my heart every time I use or think about microbeads scrubs.

I got this for Christmas last year and I LOVE IT so please get me this hahaha :

LINK HERE

8. Hand Cream/ Lotion/ Lip Tint/ Matte Lip Cream/ ANY Beauty Products 💖

Very Expensive 

IM JUST PUTTING THESE HERE COZ A GIRL CAN DREAM

Lenses for Nikon D5300

1. Tokina 11-20mm f/2.8
2. Sigma 17-50mm f/2.8
3. Sigma 50-100mm f/1.8
4. Sigma 18-35mm f/1.8

iPad Pro 10"

Ok that is all I shall start studying for midterms now.

THANK YOU 👄

18 Things To Do At 18

Created on 05/12/2015

*****Last Update: 30 June 2016*****

1. Climb Mount Kinabalu.
28-29/06/2016 Didn't reach the peak but I did climb! More about the expenditure here!

I am 15 minutes away from being 18!

So this is my last post as a seventeen year old teen whom can relate to ABBA's Dancing Queen. Whom can read seventeen magazine and feel like all is perfect. Whom can say "I'm still a kid!" when things went awry.

I just want to say I'm quite sad to not be able to celebrate as last year (sizable party) due to financial restriction and coz the people I'm close with here is basically my housemates. This will be my 18th birthday! My first step into adulthood. Yet, I'm here, living independently, like I'm already an adult...

I care so much about birthdays, especially significant ones like 18th birthday! But, blame me for my bad spending habit, I won't be able to eat out at a fancy restaurant or go to have sweet delicacies. I only have 20% of my monthly expenses now and it's only been 10 days since mommy wire me the money... Now I'll have to limit myself to a maximum of RM10 per day to see myself through a minimum of 15 days... Oh boy...

Okay than, I guess I don't have much to say. Um, maybe I can make a few birthday wishes?

Birthday Wishes
1. I'll curb my spending habit.
2. I'll pick up all things fast and be a 4.0 GPA student.
3. I'll be forever fit and happy.
4. My zits all over my face (and back oops!) will vanish.
5. I'll be fairer and fairer.
6. I'll get more friends.
7. I'll be better and better in basketball.
8. I'll be granted a scholarship.

Okay goodbye seventeen year old me!!!! I'll miss you!!!!!! I'll miss being a kiddo! I'll miss not being able to open my own bank account! I'll miss everything about non-adult life!

I'm sad.

xoxo,
Audrey

17 Honest Truth

This 30th June, I will be turning 17. So, in conjunction to that, I came up with a list of 17 truths about me.

1. I'm an introvert by heart.

2. I am actually embarrassed of my knowledge.

3. I felt self conscious about being ambitious.

4. I love chocolates so much.

5. I have bacnes.

6. I have never been into any serious relationship my whole life.

7. I am saving my first love for someone I can see my future with.

8. I like the smart and quiet type of guys.

9. A lot of times I pretend to be bimbotic just so people won't say I'm obnoxious/ overconfident/ bitchy.

10. I have an obsession with making lists. Shopping list, to-do list... The list goes on!!

11. I have a strange fear for throwing parties.

12. I don't "feel" much, I just say stuffs I see and observed. Sans feelings.

13. I love the name Lea Audrey coz it sounds so French.

14. I wish to backpack travel the world with my future boyfriend before we get married.

15. I want to go on a girly shopping trip with my friends to Japan-Korea-Taiwan.

16. I secretly hope that my future partner will get a secret photographer/videographer to record his proposal to me.

17. I always over-analyze things.

An there you have it! You might love me better after this, or you might hate me. Whatever. But honestly, please don't hate me coz I am a people pleaser who wants everyone to love me.

So yeah bye.

My 2014 New Year Resolutions

Hola!

So school's super boring!! The only good thing about it is i get to see my friends and we can talk and talk haha.

Anyway i did say i will post about my 2014 New Year Resolution right? So here goes!!

©©©© My 2014 New Year Resolution ©©©©

Lemme break it down for ya!

1. I NEED to get 9As ++ in SPM coz I NEED a scholarship for A-levels so that i won't burden my parents with the rocketing Course Fee... OMG seriously i cannot believe that ATC A-levels course fee is increased by RM3000!!! Last year it's only 9000+, but now it's 12000+ wtf??!!!!! Sigh!! Now i really really really need to buck up and study extra extra extra hard!!! Big Sigh!!

2. Skip Tuition = Cannot catch up = No As in SPM = No scholarship = Big burden for parents = Sad me :(

3. Coz after I am baptised in 2013, i skipped church services most of the time hehe *embarrassed

4. So i can have beautiful, flawless skin!!! I know i'm not pretty and i cannot do anything about it, BUT my can make my skin real good and perfect, and that can make up for my flawed appearances muahaha.

5. Hot bodeehh, and strong arms, and healthy body, and smart mind!! ooohhh I can smell *ehem* Beauty and brains!! HAHAHAHAHA

6. It kinda explains itself.

7. Coz i don't want to get myself into the messy world of Relationshit. And I'm also too busy coz i need to study and focus on myself hohoho.

8. This post doesn't count coz i posted in in 2013!! Hehehe this year i shall be a good girl.

9. Yep. I need to stop. 

10. To get ready for my COLLEGE LIFE OH YEAH!

11. Translation: Spendings on Fashion & Beauty are limited to RM50 per three months. This is to reduce carbon footprint and my once-upon-a-time-big spendings on stupid not-much-use stuffs. And also for college hehe.

12. I DO NOT WANT TO JOIN KEMAMPIN! And I don't like to have any responsibilities and exceptions by others.

13. LOL I don't know what more to put, so i wrote that down hahaha.

Actually when i finished this resolutions list right, I thought about posting it on my IG and caption "13 Resolutions to end 2013" *lame. But then i think it kinda sound cheesy so i ended up not sharing it hehehe.

I have a feeling that 2014 will be a good year although i do have mixed feelings as i step into it. 

I felt sad coz i'm now no longer 16 and i never had my Sweet Sixteen. Plus, this means i'm older and next year i will be leaving home and set off to college in far far away new place- KL. I know i will miss my mom and dad and baby brother :( AND AND AND I will be alone in a foreign place and i will have to learn how to manage my own money and how to navigate through the big city ALL BY MYSELF.

On the other hand, i do feel happy about coming in 2014 as this is my last year of high school. I am sooo done with high school to be honest. I just dislike my school and teachers and even classmates more and more! I don't want to be like this, but i just can't help it. I HATE school so much!!! I hate seeing those people who are so fake and judgemental and biased but i have to keep on being friendly towards them coz i've always been. And you know how people will be like if you suddenly change your attitude... So yeah, I'm super happy about ending High School and SPM!! This will be the last paragraph for my current life chapter!!!

And next year.......... *happy sigh* wtf

That's all i guess! Am now watching The Carrie Diaries OMG it's so good i'm obssesed! I can now understand all those hypes about this show in those fashion columns! Thank you Flenny for recommending this!!

So these are my 2014 New Year Resolution! What's yours? :)