After my worst panic attack yesterday, I finally decided to seek medical help. Went to general practitioner and was told I may have anxiety disorder and depression. Referred to specialist. And today, I went to see a psychiatrist. So far diagnosed with panic disorder with generalized anxiety disorder and underlying depression.
Was prescribed anti-depressants and sleeping pills to help regulate my sleep pattern.
I'm glad I did this. Not happy to find out I very likely have depression because I'm still stuck in the "I can control my thoughts and emotions!" mindset, and that depression just means I don't have high EQ. But think I just need to come to terms with it and accept treatment.
Really hoping this would help me :) Haven't felt so much hope for a long time haha. Hoping I won't put myself up for too much disappointment.
Also very thankful for all the people I've seen these 2 days - the general practitioner, the psychiatrist, and my dear friend veron for driving me and accompanying me to the doctors'. Really gave me a sense of normalcy to be diagnosed but come out of doctor's office and have normal conversations and do normal things. Huge sense of normalcy. Think it really helped in preventing me from blowing my diagnosis out of proportion.
Utterly thankful for everything. I have been doing a lot of things to help with my issues since the longest time, and today I was told by the psychiatrist that those things are likely what made me still so intact given my past experiences. She mentioned that people with my experiences would usually be in much worse position than I am. Because of that, I think I should one day share all the things I do that helped! It's nice to be reassured that I was doing well and already the best that I can with actual fruitful outcome. Perhaps not a 100% result, but still a very good one, she said. I'm really, really glad.
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